Our baby went home to be with Jesus this week. It has been a very emotional time in our house. The miscarriage wasn't easy. After a trip to the emergency room, going into labor twice, and losing huge amounts of blood, the baby was finally pulled from me Wednesday morning. I never thought it would be this hard. We're not even sure yet if the baby ever developed or if an empty sac tricked my body into thinking I was pregnant for almost 12 weeks. But a fertilized egg is a child even if it is unable to grow. Either way, I now have to deal with the knowledge that there is no baby to hold, cuddle, nurse, or coo over. One of my first thoughts when I first started bleeding was an image of my baby in the arms of my Savior. I am so comforted in knowing that one day we will meet. And I will be able to hold my baby in my arms. Until then, we will think of her often and look forward to the day when our family will be complete. Together. In Heaven.
I praise God for His love and comfort during this trial. I pray that through this I will become a better Mommy, a more compassionate friend, and a stronger witness for Christ.
4 comments:
I am heartbroken for you! I love you so much and it is painful to see you going thru this!
I am praying that God will continue to comfort you and give you peace.
Well spoken my friend. I'm so sorry for this trauma to your body and your heart and to your family.
For this, we have JESUS.
Love,
Krista
Oh Jamie...I'm so sorry. I have been where you are and understand. You are in my prayers and if you need anything, please let me know. And precious Ainsley. I'm praying for her sweet heart too.
I meant Lillian... I'm praying for all of your family, but it breaks my heart for the answered prayer of an innocent child to be stolen.
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